Saturday, July 30, 2011

What's in a Name?

Figured I should let my readers know that there's another change I've made recently...I'm changing the spelling of my name from Toby to Tobi.  :-)  Here's how it happened....
We were sitting in mediation and the mediator asked, "Do you want to change your name back to your maiden?" And I said, "yes" and he said, "Do you want to change anything else about your name?"  And I was like, "HUH?  Didn't know I could..." and I said, "No thanks."  And then I got to thinking...I've always hated the masculine spelling of my I called my Dad and told him that I had the oppurtunity to change it and I thought it would be cool to finally spell it the feminine way, but only if he was ok with it because it wasn't a big enough deal to me if he didn't want me to and he was like, "I couldn't care less! Do it!" So I called the mediator and told him that I wanted to change it to Tobi.  :-)  Maybe I won't get quite so much mail for Mr. Toby Bushman anymore.  hehe

Divorce and the Disease.

Well, this is a post I've been avoiding for a long time.  To be perfectly honest, it's humiliating.  I have put on a "happy marriage" face for a long, long time and my blog has been no exception. It's been a rough few months to say the least.  I've been under a lot of stress and undergone a lot of heartache, as have my children and my soon-to-be ex-husband.  But I'm thankful to report that my symptoms have been surprisingly few for the amount of stress I've been under.  Getting used to life as a single mother, accepting the failure of my 9-year marriage, moving out of our beautiful home into a small apartment, and trying to figure out how to survive on what little money I have, among other things, has been incredibly difficult.  There are days where I just want to lay in bed and cry, and yet, my four precious children need me.  They need me to be strong, and positive, and courageous.  These sweet kids have kept me going.  They are my purpose.  I am so blessed to have them. 
I have decided to return to the Swank diet.  I went on the Swank diet a few years ago because my neurologist thought it would help me.  I was on it for about 9 months.  And help me it did.  Then I got pregnant with Jonah, and never really went back to it.  For those of you who are unfamiliar with the lifestyle, it's basically a fat free diet with a few other details.  There is plenty of info at  Want to start together?  Join me!  Let me know how you're doing!  We can help each other.